I just wrote and lost a nasty, weepy, self pitying post that really revealed too much. It's a good thing it got lost. My DSL service has been on the fritz for days, and tonight, its bad service served me well. I didn't need to publish that post, but I did need to write it, and I did write it. It even read fairly well if you could handle all those vile emotions spewing up in it. That's a start, isn't it? just being able to write about how crappy this day has been? Isn't it?