Friday, January 02, 2009

Called on the carpet


There is a risk in having a smart daughter. When she's right, she's right. When she's lecturing me, that's rather uncomfortable. Actually, it's incredibly annoying. She's been running from one place to another steadily over the Christmas break, and I haven't. To be totally honest, I've been a mopey mule a lot of the time, reserving the smile and the charm for work and the few holiday gatherings I attended.

Part of my role in the family has always been the motivator, the one who pushed everybody else to look at the bright side, to not give up, to push on through. I haven't been able to keep that up this year. Oh, I've tried, and when it's been absolutely essential for the womanchild, I was able to do at least a little, and when I couldn't keep it up, my more naturally upbeat friends stepped up to the plate and did it for me. The only thing was that I wasn't doing it for myself any more.

Every time C. and I saw each other, we kept saying, "Why are you mad at me?" Neither of us was mad. We were irritable. I was fed up with teenage attitude (which is still a remarkable improvement over teenage PTSD symptoms). She was fed up with my life sucks attitude. Tonight it came to a head and after a few heated words, we apologized and then she said, "Come back here. I'm not done lecturing you." (Wonder where she learned that phrase.) She basically said that it was time for me to get going again, and that she wants and her father would want me to be happy. I quote,"Mom, you're a smart and pretty woman, and you shouldn't go through life being miserable."

Well, she is right, but hearing it laid out that plainly was a smack upside the head. I've got some work to do. I may be "faking it til I make it" for awhile, but I'm basically a pro at that. I'm so good at faking being upbeat that it makes me feel like a fraud sometimes, but I know from experience that it can work towards getting me back to feeling more positive. In the time being, all I'll say is what a kid I've got.

4 Comments:

Blogger Lisa :-] said...

I believe I have commented in the past that the apple didn't fall far from the tree.

I second C's opinion (the part about you being smart and pretty and not going through life being miserable.) At some point, being miserable takes too much work...

January 03, 2009 8:25 AM  
Blogger Sarah S-D said...

Godspeed as you seek to climb out of the valley. yes, what a kid indeed!

January 03, 2009 8:49 AM  
Blogger emmapeelDallas said...

Sounds like an incredibly smart kid to me!

January 03, 2009 8:03 PM  
Blogger Tressa Bailey said...

Your daughter is becoming quite the wise woman. You are blessed.

January 03, 2009 8:30 PM  

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