I've spent too much time crying in shame, bitterness, resentment, pain and fear. The countless mistakes I've made in life have played in a countless loop in my head. I've felt weak and powerless to such a degree that it made me question everything I thought I knew about myself.
It's been more than just another bout of depression, and I couldn't see a way out.
It actually helped when I found out that some health issues were contributing to the miasma I was in. You can deal with something physical, and I am, slowly. Once you begin managing one issue, it's easier to believe that you can manage others.
How much I have to manage intimidates me, but I'm working on things a little bit of a time. It's enough to get me through a day and enough to get me back to my blog.