This is my one full day off this week, and I've spent most of it either crying or fighting back tears. Tomorrow would be my husband's 50th birthday. What is the proper tense form for that sentence? It still is his birthday even if he's not around anymore. I have to focus on drivel like that to keep the tears in check and my chin up.
It's one more milestone he won't see and we won't share. It's a pretty big milestone. Maybe that's why it's getting to me so bad.
This is one of the things that's just so horrible about grief. You get better, and then something like a birthday makes it so sharp all over again.