Really just minutes ago, I woke from a nightmare. Sweating, twisted in my sheets, bladder on the edge of crisis, I could still feel the claws of unrecalled but tenacious monsters from my dream. I knew I had to shake this off. For weeks now, I've woken every night around three a.m. with a sense of deep anxiety. It has taken hours to shake it off, and a touch has lingered through my days. Tonight, accepting this wakefulness and interior darkness that feels like my deserved lot, I signed onto Facebook and got a short, sweet message from my daughter -- "Happy Momma's Day" with the following video.
I'll be going back to bed very soon. The monsters have been banished back to their caves by the brave and tremendous warrior that is my tiny, beautiful daughter. I am a richly blessed mother.
I loved this video. Since I first became sick last Fall, I have had nightmares and wake up during the night, often finding it difficult to go back to sleep. I think our age works against us as well. I loved the video. On Mother's Day I was not feeling well. My son was meeting a customer and completing a job and the guy was very late so I didn't even see him. He called at 7:30 but I was about ready for bed. I love being able to go online in the wee hours of the morning. You feel less alone.
There are so many aspects to life. It's rich and complicated, and even the simplest of people is more complex than anyone can imagine. Each of our interests can shine like a jewel when it's in its own little box, but when they're massed together, it can be dazzling. I wanted my blog to reflect some of that intangible wealth.
Some Words That Inspire Me
Love recklessly. Love extravagently. Love with abandon. ~ Gannet Girl
I dare you to believe in God. I dare you to think [our existence] wasn’t an accident. ~ Madeleine L'Engle
Some Words That Explain Me
I would not write so much about myself if I knew anything else as well. ~ Henry David Thoreau
What keeps me writing is that I can only know through writing — my major sense organ is apparently a pencil. ~ Kay Ryan
Some Words To Live By General Wolf Rules for Life
1. Eat
2. Rest
3. Rove in between.
4. Render loyalty
5. Love the children
6. Cavil in moonlight
7. Tune your ears
8. Attend to the bones
9. Make love
10. Howl often
~Clarissa Pinkola Estes
Live your imagination, not your history. - Steven Covey
6 Comments:
You have a wonderful daughter.
Wow. What a great kid. You must be a wonderful momma.
She IS a gift...
I loved this video. Since I first became sick last Fall, I have had nightmares and wake up during the night, often finding it difficult to go back to sleep. I think our age works against us as well. I loved the video. On Mother's Day I was not feeling well. My son was meeting a customer and completing a job and the guy was very late so I didn't even see him. He called at 7:30 but I was about ready for bed. I love being able to go online in the wee hours of the morning. You feel less alone.
Perfect...
Your blog presence is missed. I hope all is well. Come back soon.
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