What I hadn't heard in all the buzz (probably because I wasn't listening) was that Julie & Julia is about blogging as much as it is about French cooking. Julie Powell landed her book and movie deal through a blog she started in 2002, a couple of years before I started blogging. The Julie/Julia Project got started as the result of a big identity crisis. Julie was working as an underpaid, highly frustrated secretary for a government agency, out of step with her single and successful friends, living in a place she didn't like and wondering if she would ever do anything with her life.
Need I say I identified? Let's see...job frustration, low income, friends in very different life circumstances, not liking one's home, feeling like a failure whose life is passing her by, writing talent that's not getting fruitfully used. Check, check, check, check, and check. Well, Julie cracked the code. Now a successful author, she turned her life around by finding something that interested her and writing about it without the expressed goal of publication. She gave herself a project deadline, several emotional meltdowns (oops, let's add another check to the list), gained a bit of weight, a lot of insight and did it by blogging. She found friends and support in unexpected places (another check), found her sense of self and most importantly her sense of joy. Also she crushes wildly on David Straithairn (another check) and is a terrible housekeeper (yet another check, though thank goodness, I've never found maggots in my kitchen). She didn't start her blog with the expressed goal of landing a book deal. Compared to what else she found along the way, that almost seems a lucky coincidence.
So with this not so neatly checked off list of similarities, the possibility of solidifying my sense of self and finding some joy again seems a pretty strong possibility for me. I like the idea of giving myself a deadline. They've always worked well for me, but a deadline for what is the big question. I'm going to have to think about that for awhile. Right now, it's enough that I feel a sense of possibility, another thing I haven't felt in a long time.